How hard do I try?

Once again I am in love. Once again I am Plagued by the question "How hard do I try?" At least this time it's not all in my imagination. But what is keeping him from texting me and is it a sign? I know what it is at least partly. He's told me. It's fear really. And I can understand that. But can I help him conquer his fears? I don't think so. But I can at least show him I care. But how much how often. Because I care a lot and I don't want to overwhelm him but I also don't want to let him bow out or disappear it would be easier if he lived near. But my confidence and boldness seem to work better from a distance. Perhaps we are both giving fear too much to say. Perhaps I'll give it another day. I'll give it another day. I can wait for another day. Feel better my love today.
July 15, 2018

Night Love

You haven't written me back as fast as I hoped but I don't feel like crying. I feel hopeful! I'm going to wait this out, after all, it feels like God has taken the lead with this one. So rest up and learn to thrive I'll be waiting here praying for your health, wellbeing, and hoping that you learn to love risk. Night Love!
-July 19, 2018

Do you exist?

I traded a relationship with good sex for a relationship that may not exist. 
-August 8 2018

Silent Novelist

I dumped my lover for you. I'm worried I acted to fast. Did I fall in love too quickly? I haven't heard from you for 9 days are you no longer interested or are you just panicking. I know I told you I was patient now I'm thinking that was a lie. I want to hear from you.

I'm back!

I'm feeling the need to bleed again. I'm someone who has lots of unexpressed feelings. And its nice to hope that someone will share them with me. I'll put dates on past writings.
I have a new love, brand new, I haven't even met him in person yet. (Thats why I call myself Sue Pathetic I fall in love to soon with just about anyone.) But I think he's worth the effort and worth the hurt if it doesn't work out.